I've been with a battle with myself for the past 20 years on weight issues and I've been losing pounds for good. This is one of the hardest things I will ever have to do in my life, because for me, it's a constant decision making in what to eat and drink in order to have success in my weight loss.I've been in the closet with this weight loss journey and some of my friends know I am on this battle, some might think I'm on a diet and others don't have a clue. It's not something I can share with everyone because if you never been obese or overweight, you will never understand. It's not just stop eating junk food type of thing. It's a mind issue that some people have like: alcolholics and drug addicts. Obesity does destroy lives so you know.
For the past five years I've been losing weight and on and off I will go up and down the scale but it's nothing outrageous. Recently I was in a challenge with a good friend of mine who decided to withdraw from the challenge for her own reasons. I accepted her withdraw but I got mad at her for giving up on both of us. I was in the challenge for me and her, every time I didn't want to go to the gym, I would think: "oh, no, she is working out, I will do it for her". Of course it wasn't always like this but I did think of her. That's what support means, motivating and inspiring others. She inspires me, she have lost most of the weight she needs, now it's just the hard work to reach her goal weight. I'm rooting for my friend to reach that goal and have peace with herself.
My frustration is that the challenge was her and I, nobody else and she gave up on me. But I am not giving up on me. I'm continuing the challenge with myself and I, that's why I am a warrior. I am not giving up on me. I'll never will.
For the past five years I've been losing weight and on and off I will go up and down the scale but it's nothing outrageous. Recently I was in a challenge with a good friend of mine who decided to withdraw from the challenge for her own reasons. I accepted her withdraw but I got mad at her for giving up on both of us. I was in the challenge for me and her, every time I didn't want to go to the gym, I would think: "oh, no, she is working out, I will do it for her". Of course it wasn't always like this but I did think of her. That's what support means, motivating and inspiring others. She inspires me, she have lost most of the weight she needs, now it's just the hard work to reach her goal weight. I'm rooting for my friend to reach that goal and have peace with herself.
My frustration is that the challenge was her and I, nobody else and she gave up on me. But I am not giving up on me. I'm continuing the challenge with myself and I, that's why I am a warrior. I am not giving up on me. I'll never will.
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