"Do as I say, don't do as I do"...

It's not the best quotes in the world. If you tell me, you want to run a marathon, I will be the first one encouraging you to train and make to it. If you tell me, you want to travel abroad, I will be the first one to say: do it! If you tell me your dream job is to be an interior designer, I will tell you do go and get it!

But when it comes to me things are not so simple and it angers me. The reasons? There are several. Some are within my reach and some are not. I guess I listen to the one's that I can't do anything about and that's why I rather encourage others then me. It's not something I am proud of but I am trying to change my ways. I know if I don't go get what I want no one else will. I'm in the battle field and I've lost some battles but I never give up. The most important is that I know I'm capable of achieving my goals and dreams. All I need is to plan wisely.

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Posted by Mari at 10:12 PM

Changes and thoughts.

It's late at night and I'm driving down the road while a song plays in the radio. The lyrics makes my mind go a thousand miles on thoughts. I think of so many things that I feel overwhelmed.
I start to think about the things I haven't done and try to find answers why that is. Of course excuses are on the top of my list but there are some things I can't do for good reasons. So, I think of the things I can do, the one's that are on my reach. If it's a problem, I think how can I solve. If it's a change I think what can I do?

Most of the times i don't think too m u ch about things of life because they make me emotional and I don't like being emotional. It's not a matter of being weak or strong, it's a matter of not complaining about it and try to find the way out for things to work in my life. I know I might not being so clear but when I'm ready at least a step forward, I'll share in details what the "things" are.

Oh by the way, my commitment on writing my diary is not 100% but it's going. I'm proud. The first month of the year was a good start. I have to keep it strong.

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Posted by Mari at 9:25 PM